Monday, October 13, 2008



(This is a very melancholy piece of writing but its far from being negative. Thats because its reality and you cannot deny it. Sometimes, the very solution to all the pain you have is to accept it for what it is and cry over it as long as you wish. Sometimes, you have a right to be sad, to be beautifully sorrowful…..)

Ever known the hurt

the pain of just existing

Its not like physical discomfort

It doesn’t need medicines

It creeps up to you unknowingly

It builds within you slowly

It depresses you all the time

It eats you from within

It doesn’t stop in a few days time

It stretches over years to come

It never leaves you alone for a single moment

It burns you from the inside

Eventually the tears die

And emotions lessen

What remains is a void

An empty space with no meaning

Just a useless existence

The heart is vulnerable

It falters at every step

It loses much more than it achieves

It reaches early ends

I hurt too

like all of us

I have too

immense pain

What heals the invisible wounds

is not time

But, love and acceptance

of life as it is….

p.s. copied from the net

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

trials and exams

haha...first trials just finished...another one coming up after the raya holidays...well...at least it forces me to study...stpm starts on the 14th of november and ends on the 4th of december...not prepared at all leh...

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

september

beginning of september..what will it be like?
i hope it'll be a start of a new life...a start of another adventure of change...for the better...

Monday, August 25, 2008

i'm back :p

haven't blog in a week..dun really know wat to say..hee..just busy with my never ending project..wanna quit form 6 but dunno if it'll be the right decision or not..hai..

Monday, August 11, 2008

bridal gown craze...

i finally did something for my craze on bridal gowns...i can spend so much time on line just browsing through one by one...hee...here are some designs tt i like...feel free to comment...the more the better...hee...i'll add some more the next time i blog...wahaha =P

Friday, August 08, 2008

7th of August 2008

attended a seminar for maths yesterday...so so so so so boring lo...i had frens beside me but i just had tt lonely alone feeling...

no one to talk to...being left behind most of the time...

talked to him when he called...he asked me to put God first then him...talk to God first then only him...i'm glad tt i found someone tt i can be accountable to...someone tt i can count on...though he doesn't spend a lot of time with me but it's enough to remind me to do first things first...

here's a big thank u to...............thanks for being there when i need u... ^_^

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

trust Him ^_^

felt better after talking to stella...well...i decided to take things easier...whatever tt happens let it happen by itself...things tt hv to be revealed will come to light by itself...i pray tt He'll watch over tis and i trust tt He knows wat's best...